Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Starting Out

I need to express how I feel, this is the place to start I suppose.  Comments are welcome, trash will be deleted because I no longer want garbage in my life.

I'm learning to turn over a new leaf, talking myself through things, remembering the positive and trying to push aside the negative.  I want to be a positive and happy influnce for my son, so talking it out is the way to go. 

It's been a long time since I've written anything.  I'm just glad to be doing it because at one point in my life it was all I ever did.  Now I'm lucky if I even read, even though that's something I dearly love too.  I have moved so far from who I used to be when I enjoyed life.  I want to enjoy life again and not be cursing to have it leave me alone.

I fear a lot of the time that no one understands me.  I'm sure most people feel that way.  I guess that's why I keep a lot to myself and that's why I NEED to write these things down, perhaps I can find someone who understands?  Or maybe I'll just feel better.  Who knows.  I'll have to see where this thing goes.  I have a personal goal to write in this blog 3 times a week...  more is great, but less is not where I want to be.  If I do go with less I'll have to pick myself and try again. 

So this is me, this is my journey and that's how I roll ;)

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